A New Day

For the past few weeks I have had a lot of stress.  Stress that I was not sure how to fix.  Stress that kept building up and finally today I lost it.  I had stress over all the what ifs in life and what I plan on doing with myself - What if I didn't pass the bar exam, what if I can't find a job, what if I didn't want to be an attorney and what would I do now . . . WHAT IF, WHAT IF, WHAT If!

Thankfully, I have the most amazing best friend in the world, my husband, and this morning he sat down with me and talked me through everything.  He told me that I could do whatever I wanted and that no matter what we would get by.  He told me that I should postpone the bar exam (if that’s what I wanted to do) and that if I never wanted to take it that was fine by him.  He told me to find what would make me happy and if that took a while not to worry about it.  He suggested I read on the beach, blog about fashion, or just do nothing!   Talking to Jeff made the stress melt away.

So I have decided to postpone the bar exam.  I may take it in July or I may never take it.  I know some people will say what a waste of my degree.  But I know that I can’t be miserable and right now practicing law made me miserable.  I want a job that I wake up feeling excited about going to.  I’m not sure what that job may be, but I plan on exploring it.  Based upon my husband’s advice, I am going to blog my journey on finding what I want to do in life.  I am not sure what the future holds or what I will decide to do but I hope my blog is entertaining.